After a long night of walking the streets, peering into alleyways and scouting around crack houses; she is home safe.
We almost had her early on in the evening but she left just before we got there. I was devastated. To come so close. At that point we actually gave up and came home. I was so angry. The streets are just full of these poor lost souls and nothing gets done. I’m a 42 year old suburban mother and even I know where a couple of crack houses are and the names of some of the dealers. Why can’t the police shut them down? I know their argument is that they want to catch the big guys not the little guys but their plan is obviously not working! Shouldn’t they try something different? It kills me that there is nothing they can or will do to help parents in situations like this. When I talked to them they gave me their usual spiel…she’s over the age of 16, nothing we can do, blah, blah, blah.
H’s bf kept in touch. letting me know via phone and text what he knew, which I appreciated so much. By the time we got home I was crying so much I didn’t think I would ever stop. After we’d been home for about an hour a collect call came. It was H. She was crying and saying she was sorry. I told her I’d come and pick her up. She told me she didn’t know how long she could stay where she was…no money left and her credit shot I guess. But she gave me her location and my husband and I hopped in the van. By the time we got down there she was gone.
I didn’t know how much more I could take. I took a deep breath and parked the van. My husband and I did another walk through the area. An ambulance drove up to a crowd near the salvation army and all I could think was that it was for her. (It wasn’t.) As we crossed a street I could see a girl curled up in a fetal position up on a stone wall. It looked like my daughter, but I had already thought that a dozen times and didn’t want to get my hopes up. But it was her.
We found her. Thank you to everyone who commented and prayed. It meant the world. I feel very grateful to have found a community of such giving, caring people. People who, as sad as it is, understand. Thank you all so much.