She’s checked herself into detox. Thank God. But for the past two days I’ve been dealing with endless phone calls…
She says she wants to die. Those words send a chill right to my core. Because she almost did die once. She OD’d and as I was driving her to the hospital (she was perfectly lucid at that point) she suddenly had a grand mal seizure and stopped breathing. I called 911 and had her boyfriend (who was in the car with us) talk to them while I pulled over, dragged her out of the car and started CPR. Within minutes the fire department was there and they took over. When the ambulance arrived and they got her in she stopped breathing again. They had to intubate her in the ambulance. She spent 3 days in the ICU and then they released her. They RELEASED her!!!
Why would they be so quick to release someone who had tried to commit suicide? When I spoke to the psychiatrist I was told that they couldn’t treat her because of her alcohol and drug issues, that those issues had to be dealt with first. The stupidity of the system constantly astounds me.
That was 2 1/2 years ago. Since then we’ve been on the recovery/relapse train, going in circles. I’ve been told that every time an addict enters treatment there is more chance of success, more chance that something will “stick”.
I hope so.